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Saturday, November 13, 2004

haha anthoer bo liao day where i come and update this bo liao web.. hmm actually just wanted a place to let out some things lar.. haiz had a dream this morning.. then suddenely she just appeared before me.. with a guy.. of cos u all wondering who is see la.. she of cos si grace la.. dunno wtf la.. suddenely come back to my dreams again.. but out of all the few times.. this is the first time it turned nasty.. we were in this strange school.. then.. i had no idea why i was oso there.. -_-".. anyway things turn out that tat guy was her steaD? they were so close together lor.. see liao of cos pain larz.. but.. don't u all think its funny? i mean.. it was me who wanted tat break up few mths again.. but yet i like feel hurt when she with someone? haha.. so i just wanted to let out the reasons today lorz.. i cannot hide it inside of me anymore.. i broke up with u.. reason is not tat i hate you or watsoever.. the true reason was that i love u too much.. some ppl might think( hey this guy siao ar?).. but realli.. everydae everynite i think of u.. everytime when i try to get near u.. u just chase me off.. when i call u.. u shut me away.. there was no contact between 2 of us.. i felt so injured.. somemore most of your frens i know.. they all don like u.. i believe tat there must be a way to change everything.. i tried.. it failed.. having to endured for a few mths.. no.. maybe a few years.. i could not take it anymore.. that year.. you was also promoted to president of the student councillor board.. i know very well of what was goin to happen after that.. stress would come.. and u would not be able handle it.. tat was wat i thought.. time and again.. i tried my best to tell u that we might break up anything.. but sometimes i wonder.. do u realli understand wat i was saeing?i mean.. most of the promises u told me was always broken.. when your frens tell u something.. u remember for life.. but yet.. something from me.. it does not seems to have effect on u.. having so much problems... and also my exams are coming.. i could no longer take it.. i did not wan to do it.. but i know i must.. for the sake of my future.. and yours.. having to break up.. i hope i can achieve something.. that is u would change and become a better person.. where your frens would get close to u again.. like wat u wanted always.. in the end.. indeed it happened.. u changed as of expected.. haiz.. how i wish things won't turn out this way.. i still remembered tat time when we first met.. we had so much fun together.. those days would never escaped from me.. but lookin back.. i also suffered hell from u.. sometimes i don realli understand u.. don understand why u hate me so much.. even having a chat with me would like make u die? as days go on.. u changed from what u were..i dunno why.. but i could feel the hate inside of u.. it was only after the letter.. things cooled down alittle.. i don wan to lose u.. but i had no choice.. sorry for what had happened.. i feel that we would not be able to get together once again.. it would be the end.. but its also a new begainning.. how i wish u would be beside me once again and not like the dream's words.. anyway.. i think that is all that i wan to sae.. hope u do well in everything ... grace tan xin yi.. take care....
YuLong..

Posted by Yu Long at 1:03 PM